a song by james smith.
suddenly gave me the reason to come up here again.
often we seek for somebody to rely on, for someone to love us for who we are.
Tell me that you love me, the way that you used to love me?
you posted a picture with your girlfriend yesterday night, I originally thought that all my feelings are already dead, until yesterday night
I hope you're doing well, I hope you love her the way that she will never go through the heartbreaks that I went through
I thought I was immune
I thought I wasn't this weak
the reason why I kept telling people that I am totally not into dating someone currently is because I am always too rush to love
I always fall in love too quickly, quick enough until I lost all my rationale to evaluate my true feelings and my own thoughts
often need someone to rely on, like how I got myself addicted to the goodnight app
yesterday night there was a 那鲁湾男孩 accompanying me until I fall asleep
grateful for that, grateful for who he is, grateful that it was a really really comfortable conversation last night
learn to spend some time alone, learn to love yourself, grow by yourself
I always tell people there, but I don't think I can even do it by myself.
I love myself for who I am, and no doubt I am always on the way bettering myself
the road isn't short, at all
I need time
and during this time
often I'll think of getting someone to be with me
maybe not dating someone
but having someone
someone that will always talk to me, be there for me
someone that will always have me on his mind (or her)
someone that prioritize me
someone that loves me for who I am
may that someone not be the one that comes in as a partner
may he or she be my best friend that I have not meet yet
maybe I am just asking too much
still find goodnight app really amazing
never thought that I could get addicted to this app
or even the people in there
it's funny how promises can be changed so easily
they are so...vulnarable
it means a lot to one party,
at the same time it's nothing to another
I still remember how many kisses I got from you at the exact same place we celebrated our Valentine's Day
Not to deny, even though I don't love you as who we were anymore
but still those memories are unforgettable
at least to me.
有人问我做过最疯狂的事是什么
我都忘了马六甲途中回来的那件事 哈哈
我很想去旅行 迫不及待想去
我很想要自己一个人瞎晃 乱走
我很大胆 同时也很俗辣
大胆爱一个人的同时也俗辣的不敢告诉人家
是大家的通病吗
还是只有我
相信一听钟情的吗？
好奇怪哦 我怎么可以这么随便依赖上一个陌生人
他一定是觉得我烦死了哈哈哈
if there's a chance for me to become a kid again
will I choose yes?
I never wanted to grow up
but do I want to go back?
to my next one in the very far future:
love me no matter what
okay?
