又上来
是生理期太多愁善感
还是自己真的很爱想太多
如果平时有这样天天更新
那有多好
今天回家途中也不知道自己是实习里第几次哭了
实习开始后就真的很爱哭
小事也哭琐事也哭
而今天的原因 简单也复杂
加班到七点零四分
我很难过
难过的不是被骂
不是被酸不是被讲
是不服
不服气自己没做到给自己的承诺
说好了要长大
但是却好像越来越懦弱 又回到了中二时代
说好了不许成为任何人的负担
这整个实习好像不断都在麻烦别人
原本想要抱怨别人的谩骂
但是想想自己的笨拙和粗心好像占比较大比数
原本想要说说所有的不公平
但是想想世界本来就没有意见是公平啊
也不知道为什么
一整车一直在想太多
很多很多
我很想他
也不知道发什么神经
明明就没有很喜欢 却想到不能呼吸了
一路上
我在想
没有做到好女儿的本分
还要父母担心 父母养
没有做到好姐姐的本分
一点都没有榜样
没有做到好同学的本分
浑身一技之长都没有 什么都不厉害 什么都不会 真的
没有做到好同事的本分
从实习开始就是错错错 麻烦麻烦麻烦
而且
好像也从来没有做到好女朋友的本分
那么多段感情
没有一段
可以好好提起？
我也不知道为什么自己今天想 naaaaaa 么得多
可以怪月经吗 哈哈哈哈
either you're really strong
or I'm just damn weak
just one touch
or even one tickle
you make all the walls that I've built up
just crumble like that
you just want me as a friend with benefits
but I wanted more
I wanted something that I'm not supposed to demand, I guess
为什么要每次烦我
为什么要摸摸我的头
为什么要告诉我会好起来的
每次要倒下的时候
我只想要紧紧地抱着你
我真的不可以
我不可以这样
越不可以
越不由自主的找你
I think you've somehow noticed that I'm thinking too much because of you
or maybe you did not
but you're smart enough to guess that answer
you stopped voting for my polls
and you stopped talking to me as frequent
you'll never get to see this post
so might as well I type them all out
at least I don't feel regret for not saying 'em out
thanks for all the texts that I asked for, and never asked for
thanks for holding my hands and tell me everything's gonna be fine
thanks for holding me in your arms
thanks for giving me all the warmth that I needed the most at times
thanks for letting me know I'm actually worthy
thanks for sharing me all the things that you seldom tell others
thanks for giving me the chance to look at you in the eyes
even though all you want is actually just a quick fuck
or fucks
silly me
silly me not that I've fallen for you
silly me that I trusted you will somehow feel the same way that I felt too
this shall be a really memorable part of my internship
觉得自己好好笑
probably too dry, lol
该醒的不醒 明知道答案却拼命装傻
I really don't want to tear everything off and be awkward la
晚安
